So I am almost all moved into the new house. I am so happy with it. The place is so nice. I love it.
I still hate my job. So if anyone knows of any job prospects for me. . . Give me a YELL!!

Oh! and here is my horoscope for today.....
I figured everyone who reads this Blog would appreciate it....
WHAT AM I GONNA DO? CANCEL MY DINNER PLANS TONIGHT?


Sagittarius
(Nov. 22-Dec. 21)
Like it or not, it may be time for you to settle down, take stock of what's important -- and (yikes!) commit. Don't run off screaming. Think of it as gaining a permanent travel companion.


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I NEED A VACATION

I AM MOVING INTO A NEW HOUSE IN 2 WEEKS, I HAVE A NEW CAR, I HATE MY JOB, AND MOST OF MY FRIENDS RIGHT NOW, AND I HAVE NO INTEREST IN COMMITING TO ANY MAN ANYTIME SOON. I WANT A NORMAL LIFE. I SEE ALL OF MY FRIENDS WITH STEADY BOYFRIENDS AND I WANT IT. THEN WHEN I HAVE IT I DON'T WANT IT. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME. IT'S ALMOST AS IF I HAVE SOME SORT OF HEX ON ME. I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING MEN IN MY LIFE WHO SECRETLY I LOVE DEARLY. BUT I CANNOT LOVE THEM ALL. I CANNOT HAVE THEM ALL. IT IS NOT RIGHT. IT IS WRONG!!!! WHY IS IT THAT I AM SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT THIS. COULD IT BE THAT OUT OF ALL OF THEM, NOT ONE IS THE RIGHT ONE? IS IT ME? IS IT THEM? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT? IT MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL. IT BOTHERS ME TO NO END AND I AM SO COMPLETELY FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF. I GET ALL FIRED UP AND THEN I AM SO HARD ON MYSELF. I BLAME MYSELF FO ALL OF MY BAD LUCK. I BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO MEET THAT GUY, LOOK INTO HIS EYES, FALL IN LOVE AND NOT BE DREADFULLY BORED A FEW WEEKS LATER AND THEN EVENTUALLY PUSH HIM AWAY.
MY CAT IS DRIVING ME NUTS. HE ALWAYS BREAKS INTO MY BATHROOM AND TEARS APART THE TOILET PAPER...THEN PROCEEDS TO THE LITTER BOX AND KICKS EVERYTHING IN IT OUT OF IT, THEN I ASSUME RIGHT AFTER THAT IS WHEN HE ATTACKS MY LAUNDRY, KNOCKS IT OVER AND DRAGS MY CLOTHES THROUGH THE HOUSE. I ACTUALLY DREAD TURNING THE DOORKNOB OF MY FRONT DOOR BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO SEE THE DISASTER LET ALONE CLEAN IT UP.
NOW THATS ALL OUT OF MY SYSTEM, ITS TIME FOR ME TO FINISH MY SONG, AND THEN HIT THE HAY. DID I JUST SAY "HIT THE HAY"??? YEAH I DID. YEAH.. MAYBE NO SONG AND JUST BED!

CIAO'
-ME



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DAMN I LOOK GOOD

So it has been almost 6 months since my wreck and It feels like yesterday.
So many things have happened lately and I am so very grateful. Thanks to Brian, I have a new car. Thanks to Ed, I have been putting alot of time into recording my demo...free of charge. Thanks to Dennis I am moving into a nicer, bigger and just more convenient home on Sept. 1. Thanks to Spanky, and Liz and Scott. . . for being such great friends. I have had a trying and tumultuous few months and finally I am beginning to feel as if things were normal.
Ahhhhh Tom, Jay, Hoss, Willie, Spanky, Wacka, Sully,and especially Brian . . . My men. What would I do without you? My life would be so very, very boring.

I thank the Moon and the Stars for my good fortunes lately.

I wish that I could have made ammends with Tony and worked things out between us. . . Maybe this time just was not the right time either. I hope someday I can be ready to commit to him or to someone just like him.

The only thing that I pray to the moon for is the ability to commit and focus on one human being. The ability to not become so bored. The ability to not have to worry about when someone says they love me. . . . The ability to never push them away.
Someday it will happen.... But until then, I hope that I will always be blessed with the men that I care deeply for and the ones who know what it means when I say it.

Someday I will marry one of you. I promise.

Time for me to go hit the mic. My throat has rested all weekend .... YOGA, Recording and then to bed!!!
I will fill you in on my weekend when I get home later tonight.

Ciao'

Love,
Katie